AMID SECRETS - CHAPTER 42
*Saheed’s POV*
Yes, what exactly is going on? I don’t enjoy making her miserable. But this is the only way to catch her attention. I know Maduka will leave her the moment he finds out about her. Can’t she see, though? Can’t she see that even with her past, I’m still after her? I’m sure that after the truth is revealed, she’ll see that I still want her. Maduka is infatuated with the innocent part of her, but I know the true her. Queen, child of the night, a paradox I would like to figure out.
Hell, the things she makes me feel.
I accidentally move my bike too quickly over a speed bump and it bounces. Her arms tighten around my torso, and I grin. Maybe I should move into potholes, too.
The purr of the engine underneath me, her comfortable weight against my back, and the breeze whizzing past me have a soothing effect on me and I regret having to end the ride when I park my bike on the parking lot of Sailor’s Lounge, Lekki.
Queen disengages her arms from me and tries to pull off her helmet. I signal for her to wait, take off mine, and help her take off hers. Too quickly, she tries to hop off and it seems like her legs almost give way underneath her, but I catch her.
“They’re a bit numb,” she says with a laugh as she tries to pull free from my arms.
I consider holding her there against her wishes, but I know she won’t like that and so I release her. Queen gives me a quizzical look and I retaliate with a shrug. We are ushered by the friendly bouncers to the upper deck, where the sea breeze caresses us and the water glimmers under the moon light.
Sailor’s Lounge, located on Admiralty road, in Lekki Phase 1, is a bar set up on water. It offers a beautiful view of the sea and serves really delicious meals prepared by experts. There is good music from a live band most times and the atmosphere is always relaxing. I have brought many ladies to this place, setting the stage for a night of seduction.
And I have always succeeded.
With this one, it will take a lot of work. But I am optimistic.
“This is beautiful,” she says when we are led to our table at the edge of the deck, right next to open space and water.
I muse at how our dates involve bodies of water; the first time it was at the Oriental Hotel, overlooking the Atlantic ocean.
“Not as beautiful as you, though.”
She smiles and I wonder how she can manage one, even when it’s obvious she didn’t come for this on her own free will, even when I blackmailed her into this. I know the smile isn’t for me but for the serenity of the place, which makes her temporarily forget her complicated love life.
Saheed, why the sudden ‘deepness’?
Once seated, we are handed menus.
“Would you like safe segz on the beach?”
Her eyes widen and she almost drops the menu. I burst into laughter and a few heads turn in our direction.
“What did you just say?”
“Safe segz on the beach. You’ll like it.”
“Saheed, are you-”
“Relax, it’s a drink.” I point it out for her on the menu. “Grapefruit juice, cranberry juice, peach nectar, and a cherry.”
“Oh.”
But segz on the beach sounds like a great idea.
A waiter approaches and Queen engages him in a conversation, curious about the selection of drinks with funny names. I, on the other hand, withdraw into my mind to where segz on the beach with her is a huge possibility.
All she has to do, is tell Maduka the truth. He leaves her, I step in, and take over.
You might be wondering, what is so great about her that I’m ready to go the extra mile to get her? I’ve told you, no one has ever said no to me. And she’s wholesome, despite her background. The way she carries herself, the way she’s so comfortable in her skin, it fascinates me. She’s wilful, I like that. She doesn’t agree with everything I say. I want that fire. The women I’ve been with would gladly jump if I told them to, but Queen would most likely ask, “For what?”
segz with her would be great. Explosive. And spoiling her would be such a pleasure because I can tell she’s not used to such luxuries. If I hadn’t thrown her into the pool that night, I might have had a shot with her.
She laughs at something the waiter says, and I envy the young man. He seems to be really interested in their discussion, because he completely forgets me.
This irks me.
“Safe segz, then?” I question, interrupting their discussion.
The waiter appears to be confused for a moment before Queen tells him, “With an extra cherry, please.”
He catches on, gives a small laugh, and asks for my order. I request for fish and chips, she requests for small chops. When the waiter leaves, I remind her that she came here with me.
“And does that stop me from talking to other people?” She questions, her brows raised.
“Do you ever not feel like challenging me?” As much as I love being in control, it is pleasant to have her challenge me.
“You may have me in a tight spot, Saheed, but I will not be treated like a plaything.”
I lean forward on my elbows and look directly into her eyes. “Oh, really now?”
She opens her mouth to say something, but closes it.
That’s right, baby. Talk nau.
Instead, she turns and looks back, sensing the waiter coming with our drinks. When he places them on our table, Queen asks him a question about the measurements for ‘safe segz on the beach’, and I can tell that she is doing it just to spite me, and he is thinking not about the drink. When he opens his mouth to answer, I cut him off.
“We’ll be expecting our food. And make it snappy.”
The young man, surprised at my tone of voice, nods and walks off.
“You enjoy teasing me,” I tell her. But I can’t help but smile.
“Well, I didn’t arrange for this. I was minding my business at home and you called me. Because you hold something over my head.”
“Think about it this way: if one day you hear that Maduka has a really colourful criminal record– and you hear it not from him, but from someone else– how would that make you feel?”
“I totally get it, Saheed. But wh@??ver you think you stand to gain from this, you’re not getting it.”
“Let’s see how that works out, hmm?”
Is it cruel of me to decide that if I can’t have her, then I’d rather ruin the chances for Maduka?
“Jide knows.”
She almost chokes on her drink. “You told Jide?”
“Jide is my paddy.”
She silently continues with her drink.
“Tell Maduka. Hearing it from me or his best friend will complicate things further. Especially as I have that photo of you that your friend Temi sent to me. That was when I chose you.”
Internally, I commend her for her strength. Her eyes narrow at me. She stands up slowly, gives me a long look, and walks away. I hastily place a wad of one thousand Naira notes on the table, not bothering to check if it is too much for a meal we didn’t eat– which I’m sure it is– and walk out after her. I meet her outside, walking past my bike.
“And where are you going to?”
“Anywhere you aren’t!”
“How will you go home?”
She shoves three one thousand Naira notes in my face. “I have vex money!”
I snatch them away. “Now you don’t.”
“Hey!” She yells when I tear her money into pieces. “Saheed, you bastard-” Queen begins hitting her fists on me. Her blows are not hard enough to hurt, but it’s the fury behind them, the physical nature of her attack, that affects me.
It turns me on.
She’s hitting me and calling me names and here I am, having a very serious hard on.
Do you know what you do to me, Queen? Do You even want to know?
“How do you almost bring out the best and worst in me at the same time?” I hiss, easily holding her by the wrists and releasing her when she stops struggling.
“Oh, I’m pleased to know that!” She replies sarcastically. “Saheed, don’t–!”
Too late. I have lost control. Before we both know it I crush her to my body and kiss her. I have the advantage of taking her by surprise.
Chai. Am I not mad? This wasn’t what I planned. d@mn you, Queen! You’ve ruined it now!
I had been in control. All I had wanted was some relaxation, but her temper has pushed me and brought out my twisted side.
But for the love of all things good, I want her in my bed. Or on this bike. Or the ground sef.
Our separation is rather violent, with me releasing her abruptly the same moment she uses so much force to try and free herself. In that same space of time, she raises her hand and slaps me. The arousal, the sharp sting of her hand striking against my face, the surprise and anger that she even dared…
I notice that I am a bit shaky from all this segzual tension, something that rarely ever happens.
“I’m sorry,” I murmur, stepping back and turning away, hands running over my cropped hair. “It wasn’t meant to happen. I swear it.”
I’m losing control.
I take in a couple of deep breaths to steady myself. That was wrong, I thought I was getting better at this?
And why hasn’t she said anything?
I turn and she’s gone. In the semi-darkness, I catch a glimpse of her figure, running towards the road.
“Queen!”
Somehow, she manages to get into a taxi before I get there. I can hear her yell, “Driver, just go!” in a shrill voice. Before the car moves, I step in front of it, caught in the headlights.
“Lock the doors, lock the doors!” She pushes down the door locks and leans on one of the doors. She sounds almost hysterical.
“Driver, wait. Na me dey pay, she no get money.”
“I get money for house, driver! No mind am!”
The driver is an elderly man who seems to be more interested in his money, but winds up all the glasses except for the front passenger window as a safety measure. I quickly move over to the open window.
“Queen, I swear it wasn’t supposed to happen like this. I’m sorry. You have this effect on me, I can’t explain it. I lost control.”
“Stay away from me. I don’t care what you do anymore, just don’t come near me,” she says in a quiet voice.
Is it me or can I hear the tears in her voice? I wonder. I can’t see her face clearly. Frustration gnaws at my insides.
I pull out my wallet and hand the driver ten crisp one thousand Naira notes. “Please, deliver her home safely.” For extra measure, I collect his phone number.
Is this guilt? I think while I sit alone in Sailor’s Lounge, halfheartedly eating my chips. What I did was wrong. I shouldn’t have lost my mind like that.
“Are you having a rough night?”
I look up from my food to see a tall, slender woman wearing a big red wig over a short black dress. Her make up is professionally done, her perfume hits my nostrils and I inhale it deeply.
Smells like something Beyoncé would wear.
“What do you think?” I reply, giving her a slow smile.
Let me forget this disaster for a while.