💠 Chapter 55 💠
Ryan carried me bridal style and took me to his room. He gently put me on the bed and also lay beside me afterwards. Both of us stared at each other like it was our first time meeting.
“I really wish this night will never come to an end. Just staring at your face like this makes me very happy” he said
I also wish this night will never end but what can I do? He has a girlfriend that is carrying his child and I refuse to be the reason why the child won’t be able to live with his father and get both parents love.
“Why are you so quiet?” he asked
“I’m just thinking about a lot of things. After tonight, I will get rid of all my feelings for you and just keep working with you. If I’m lucky to leave the mafia group someday, I will travel somewhere far and start afresh” I said
“So we won’t be like this after tonight right? I guess I was dreaming too big” he mumbled
“Can’t you just give us a chance? A month! Just one month is more than enough for me to prove my love to you” he said
“It’s not about proving your love for me. You have a child coming already so you need to focus on your wife to be and take good care of both her and your unborn child” I said
“But you know I have no feelings whatsoever for Mia so how do you expect me to spend the rest of my life with her?” he asked
“You should have thought of that before getting intimate with her, right?” I asked
“I know I made a mistake and I regret it already so please, give us a chance and I promise not to repeat the same mistake” he said
“Like I said, I don’t want to be the reason why you won’t be together with your wife and child. I won’t say anything about us being together tonight but know it’s going to be the first and last time. After tonight, there will only be a professional relationship between us so prepare yourself” I concluded
“You know you’re really mean right? I thought I was cold hearted but I guess there’s still someone worse than me” he said
I faced the other side and shut my eyes tight, trying to control my tears. He thinks it’s easy for me to say all that? I feel like my heart is going to explode just thinking about the fact that we can’t be together but like I said to him, I can’t be the reason why a child’s life gets ruined.
“Brianna, are you okay?” he asked and that was when I realized I was sniffing already
I hurriedly wiped my tears just before he could turn me to face him.
“You sniffed just now so don’t tell me you’re okay” he said just before I could say anything
“I’m fine, I’m just a little tired” I lied
“I will pretend to believe you. So what do you want us to do tonight?” he asked
“I…I don’t know” I stuttered nervously
“You’re still a virgin right?” he asked and I slowly nodded my head
“Okay. But will you give me a chance at least? I know you said you don’t want to come in between Mia and I so let’s just date secretly for a month and if I’m unable to find a solution within that period, we can break up” he said
“I told you already that I’m not interested in doing that. If you talk about it one more time, then I’m going to leave” I said
“Just admit that you have another reason and Mia is just a cover. Why would you not want to be with someone you love just because of someone you don’t even know?” he asked
“That’s it! I’m leaving” I said and stood up to leave
He stood up too and pulled me closer to himself making me hit his hard chest.
“What are you doing?” I asked after seeing how close we were
“What do you think?” he asked and slammed his lips against mine, making me widen my eyes in shock
His lips felt warm and tasted better than the last time we K!SSed. I found myself responding to his K!SS and craving for more.
After a few minutes, he pulled back and stared at my face. I couldn’t look at him because of how embarrassed I was so I bowed my head. I can’t believe I responded to his K!SS even after turning him down severally.
If I don’t want to be his girlfriend, do I want to be friends with benefit then? Oh Brianna, you’re so dumb.
“Will you think about becoming my girlfriend? I can give you three days or a week to think about it” he said
“There’s no need for that because I don’t want to. I told you my decision already and I won’t be changing my mind” I said adamantly
“Fine then. I’ll respect your decision” he said and walked out of the room
I’m supposed to be happy that he finally agreed to what I said right? But why do I feel like my heart is shattering right now? He just said he’s going to respect my decision which means he’s thinking of getting engaged to Mia right? He told me he wasn’t going to get engaged to her until I agreed to wait for him so why is he changing his mind now? I guess that’s a good choice. I will be able to get him out of my head once he gets engaged.
I sat on a couch in the sitting room and picked up the TV remote. I just want anything that will help me get my mind off the discussion I had with Brianna.
Unfortunately, the movie happened to be romance and it was a K!SSing scene. It made me remember the K!SS I had with Brianna a few minutes ago and my hands subconsciously moved to my lips.
Her lips was extremely soft and I felt like K!SSing her forever. I’ve never wanted to K!SS someone so badly. Is it because I broke my rule of no K!SSing with Brianna?
I don’t know what came over me that day that made me K!SS Brianna and since then, I’ve been wanting to do it again. I angrily turned off the TV and heaved a frustrated sigh.
I came here to get rid of my thoughts about Brianna but it looks like it just got worse. I looked up at the stairs and sighed yet again. I expected her to come after me after what I said but it looks like that’s what she has been waiting for.
Right now, getting engaged to Mia is inevitable and I wonder how I will be able to cope with that. Just like Brianna said, it’s all my fault. I was blinded by how beautiful she was and wanted to have a taste of her like other women.
My phone rang jolting me out of my thoughts and I checked the caller only to discover it was Mia. I picked the call and waited for her to say whatever she had to say.
“Have you made your decision” she asked
So she couldn’t even greet? How can I put up with someone that is this rude for the rest of my life?
“We will be getting engaged this weekend so you can announce it to the public” I said and ended the call
Since this is what Brianna wants me to do, I should fulfill her wish.