A CRAZY LOVE - Episode 162
“Sit here.” Rose said, patting the place beside herself on the bed.
“First sister, can you not scold me?” Kizy asked in a meek voice while lowering her head and sitting at a little distance from Rose.
“Second sister, look at me.” Rose said and Kizy instantly lifted her head, not wanting to anger Rose anymore.
Kizy knew that yesterday her emotions took the best of her and she was about to make a grave mistake from it. Right from the decision about her fake pregnancy to the statement where she mentioned about dying, she knew that every single decision was wrong.
But it was like she was unable to control her emotions anymore. It now felt the other way round, as if her emotions were controlling her.
“I am not going to scold you. I just want you to speak everything to me clearly. Even if it is a minor problem, be it related to the company or your personal life, I want you to talk about it. Don’t keep it to yourself and suppress your emotions. Is that okay?” Rose said in the most gentle tone she had ever used for Kizy.
Kizy just looked at her first sister for a minute before nodding.
“Fool. This is what I am telling you. Just speak up wh@??ver you feel.” Rose said while a smile bloomed on her face.
She placed both her hands on Kizy’s shoulders, and came a little closer to her.
“Second sister, we have been through life and death situations. We have already seen each other at our worst. We don’t even have our dark pasts to hide from each other. Then what are you worried about? Remember that I will never judge you for any decision you make. Just that I want you to tell me about it beforehand. I want you to tell me wh@??ver is going on in that little brain of yours. Will that work?” Rose said patiently, knowing that rushing things or even scolding Kizy would end up making the situation worse.
Kizy looked at Rose for sometime, as if searching for something, or maybe making sure she wanted to do it.
“First sister, I miss Markus. I feel suffocated without him. The first month was still okay because he had promised to return after that. I would keep telling myself that Markus will be back in a month.
But.. but now that it is past the time period he gave me, I can not help but be worried sick about him. Is he alright? Is he in trouble because of me? What if something happens to Markus?
All these questions are revolving around me 24/7 and I have no solution.
How am I… Am I supposed to feel secure this way? No matter wh@??ver he arranged for me, how amI supposed to live peacefully this way? It would have been better if I was to die saving him rather than sit here and count every minute for his return.” Kizy said while tears rolled down her face.
“First sister, I will be honest. Though Markus is no less than a jerk to me for causing you all this pain, there is one thing I am sure about. He loves you dearly. In fact he loves you more than his own life. And if not for that, he wouldn’t have left your side even for a second.
So if he has promised you that he will return, he will definitely do that. You know that his path won’t be safe. So there might be things delaying his plans, but he will return back. Have faith in him and just trust his promise.
This is not the time to cry over his return. Instead you should be achieving greater heights and wait with a smirk on your face to welcome that devil. Show him that you did what he had asked you for.
Bring back that first sister who was able to shatter everything around her just to achieve what she wanted. Our gun goddess, our ice queen who never deviates one she has focused her goal.
Just set your goals, think what you want to do for his return and act accordingly. You are more than enough to do this single handedly. And if you ever need help, we have got your back.
So what are you crying about?” Rose asked, her voice getting a pitch higher with every statement, while ultimately coming back to her initially gentle voice by the last statement.
Kizy, who had felt all her emotions in the last five minutes, finally nodded. Her heart and brain, which had been going against each other until now were once again back in sync. The past five minutes had given her all the answers she was searching for.
She wiped her own tears away before hugging Rose tightly.
“Thank you first sister. I will not commit the same mistake again. And sorry for making you all worried.” Kizy said.
“You don’t have to thank or even apologize to me Kizy. Now go and talk to Jason. He was more troubled about your situation than anyone else.
Also I have asked First brother to attend the office and handle work for today while you will be on leave. Is that okay?” Rose asked, internally relaxing as she felt Kizy coming back to normal.
She didn’t know if wh@??ver she said or did was correct or not, but the aura, the strong aura that Kizy was emanating at the moment was enough to make her relieved.
“Ok. No problem. I will take it as a holiday and try to plan out a proper schedule for upcoming days.” Kizy said while her brain was already working over it.
“Hmmm. Good.” Rose said while nodding.
“I will go and meet Jason now.” Kizy said, getting up from the bed and turning towards the door.
But then she turned back again to face Rose.
“What are you waiting for?” Kizy asked.
“Huhhh?” Rose asked, not knowing what Kizy was talking about.
“Why haven’t you talked to Jason yet?” Kizy asked again.
“About what?” Rose asked, still not getting Kizy’s point.
“Fool. When are you going to confess your feelings for him? Right now our team is not taking any jobs because you are here for me. What can be the best time to tell him about your one sided love? Isn’t this the most perfect opportunity to propose to him?
You all have a lot of time on your hand. Why not plan for a grand confession?” Kizy asked with a smile.
Rose just gave Kizy a sad smile, not knowing what to say.
“Not now. Jason already has a lot of things on his mind, so maybe this is not the best time. But don’t worry, one day I am definitely going to do my confession. Just that now is not the right time. There are things he and I need to think about before I confess.” Rose replied while thinking hard about her situation.
“Okay. Whenever you feel right. But don’t forget to tell me beforehand to make proper preparations. I would be waiting for that day when you and Jason take steps together.” Kizy said in a sincere tone.
“Sure. Now go and meet Jason.” Rose said.
“Hmmm. I will go now.” Kizy said and finally left the room, followed shortly by Rose who went back to her own room.
Kizy thought about all the things once again before confirming her plans. She now had a definite path she had decided to take.
Though she still felt depressed about not getting to meet Markus, her plans made her feel more confident about wh@??ver she was about to do in the near future.
Meanwhile she also knew that there was something that Rose was hiding from her about Jason. Rose and Jason were close to begin with. Plus Jason was always a considerate guy who would never break a girl’s heart.
Thus even if the worst, that is even if he were to reject Rose’s proposal, that would be in the most non-heartbreaking way.
Hence Kizy was a little confused over why Rose had been avoiding her feelings about Jason.
Jason was sitting with a book in his hand when he heard a knock on his door.
He instantly kept the book inside the drawer of his study table, careful to not let anyone see it even if they were to open his drawer, before clearing his throat.
“Come in.” He said, already knowing who his visitor was.
“Good morning Jason!!” Kizy said in the most sweet and energetic voice since Markus’s departure.
“Morning.” Jason replied in a calm voice, though his heart felt settled after watching Kizy trying hard to get back to normal.
“So.. I am… ughh.. I was about to… uhhh.. how are you?” Kizy said, feeling like a little child who had committed some grave mistake and was now made to confess in front of her parents.
“I am good, Diamond.” Jason answered again in his supercalm voice, which was only making it difficult for Kizy to speak ahead.
“Hehe.. that’s great… you see.. I was trying to say… I mean.. let’s-” Kizy was still speaking when Jason interrupted her.
“You don’t have to force yourself if you don’t want to. Just go and rest.” Jason said, worried that this will affect her mental health.
“No no.. it’s not that.. it’s just that…” Kizy paused, closing her eyes before taking her much needed deep breath.
“I am sorry!” Kizy said, finally managing to speak properly.
It wasn’t that she didn’t want to apologize but more like her guilty conscience was making it harder for her to confess her mistakes.
“It’s ok. You don’t have to apologize. Now go and rest.” Jason answered, his heart breaking from Kizy’s apology.
“No wait. You just listen and don’t interrupt me now. Let me speak it all.” Kizy said before walking towards the chair and taking a seat in front of Jason.
Jason just kept looking at her, as if silently giving her approval to speak ahead.
“I am sorry for my behaviour last night. I should have discussed my plan with you before blurting fake news in front of public. I had seriously lost my mind and most propbably made Markus’s situation more problematic. Plus I shouldn’t have argued with you all and ran out. I.. I have been doing everything wrongly, and yet you all are still there by my side, without leaving me even… even once. I just don’t understand whether I would ever be able to thank you enough and similarlly apologize for all the stupid things I have ever done.” Kizy said and paused, sobbing in between while thinking deep before opening her mouth again.
“I.. I seriously felt like dying yesterday. In fact I had been feeling the same for quite some time.. some days. I just felt as if I had lost my oxygen since Markus left. I had been trying hard to survive without him, but it was becoming impossible with each passing day until.. until I felt that maybe dying was easier than living.
I know I must be sounding like a d@mn coward, but that’s how I thought. And I am also sorry for not speaking it all with you. You had always been my saviour, my guide and supporter, one whom I could look up to in.. in every situation. Yet I foolishly kept all my thoughts to myself and I am.. I am truly sorry for.. for that.” Kizy said before ultimately her sobs turned into cries, his heart shattering into a million pieces while watching the love of his life carrying so much pain all by herself.
Jason instantly got up and came to Kizy’s side, kneeling beside her chair. He removed a handkerchief from his pocket before passing it to Kizy.
He so badly wanted to wipe her tears away and embrace her into his warm hug, but he knew his limits. He had promised Markus to take care of Kizy professionally, no more no less.
Plus though he loved Kizy insanely, he knew what was Kizy’s happiness. He could see the love Kizy and Markus shared, and never wanted her to stop laughing and smiling the way she did while Markus was present.
Hence he was happy watching Kizy smile and laugh, even when the reason for her laughter was not him.
“It must have been very hard for you to carry all this burden by yourself. Sorry for not understanding your pain even when we were witnessing you suffer every single day.
And who said you are a coward? How can a person going through all this alone will ever be a coward? If anything, you have been the bravest of all and I am proud of you for that.” Jason said, making Kizy shocked.
She knew that Jason was not the one to sugar coat words and tell lies. Even though he was considerate about others feelings, he would still point out all the mistakes, while being utmost polite and careful to not hurt the person in front.
Thus she knew that each and every word he said must be true and not just something to make her feel better.
“But there is only one thing that you did wrong. Guess what?” Jason said in a gentle voice, relieved that Kizy had stopped crying.
“Not sharing this with anyone.” Kizy said while lowering her head.
“Exactly. But you don’t have to feel guilty about it, Diamond. We all should have been more attentive towards you and we are at fault as well.
But I hope that next time onwards you will share your problems. It is not necessary that you share it with me. Instead you can tell Rose, Victor, Harry, Nicole or any other person you are comfortable with.
Since you already know your mistake, it is enough. I just hope that you will never repeat that again. Go and talk it out with someone. Hmmm?” Jason said, still being in his gentle mode.
“I promise.” Kizy replied.
“Now go and freshen up. Let’s have a healthy breakfast. I know that Rose would have already spoken with you so I don’t have to lecture you anymore. Just don’t forget why Markus has done this all. If you were to die, then all the risks and dangers he might be facing right now are useless.
If you truly want to do something, then be stronger. Be so strong that you never feel lacking, no matter who you are fighting against.” Jason said before getting up and filling a glass of water for Kizy.
“Thank you.” Kizy said while taking the glass and taking small sips of water.
“I will go now. Sorry for making all the wrong decisions and making you all worry. I will never repeat the same thing again.” Kizy said before getting up and hugging Jason tightly, making him freeze.
He had never expected this moment to ever happen in his life. He paused for a second before raising his hands and caressing her head, still taking care to not cross the limit.
In fact the way he was hugging Kizy felt like a father hugging his daughter, with care and affection.
Finally after a minute, Jason broke the hug, while looking straight into Kizy’s eyes.
“No matter who stays or who leaves, Markus would never leave you alone and so will our team. Thus remember that you will always have a place to come back to, to rant, to cry and even to say meaningless things.
Now go and have your breakfast or else Rose will scold me for making you wait this long.” Jason said, smiling at the end.
“Yeah.” Kizy said and started walking towards the door.
She was about to open it when she suddenly turned back.
“Jason.” She called back.
Jason, who had turned his back towards Kizy to look at the garden outside his window, turned back to face her.
“Hmm?” He asked.
“I have a favour to ask from you.” Kizy said.
“Diamond, you and favour? Just say you need some help. Or maybe you don’t even have to say that and simply ask wh@??ver it is.” Jason said.
“I would have done that if it was related to me. But it is about someone else.” Kizy replied.
“Who?” Jason asked while raising his eyebrow.
“Ok so first of all, don’t think about any negative situation. In fact the news is very positive. But I don’t know how you will react. So I am-” Kizy was still speaking when Jasin cut her off.
“Come to the point. Don’t beat around the bush.” Jason said quickly, his mind already running everywhere, thinking about all types of situations.
“Ok so the thing is, once all this fiasco is over, I mean when Markus will come back and everything returns to normal and there is peace everywhere, I want you to go and have a nice talk with First sister.” Kizy said slowly.
“Rose?” Jason asked in confirmation, thinking he must have misheard Kizy.
“Yeah. You need to have a good talk with her and remember to be calm and gentle all the time.” Kizy said.
“Why though?” Jason asked cluelessly.
“Just do as I have told you. Anyways I will get going now. I am way too hungry.” Kizy said before finally leaving Jason’s room, leaving a confused Jason to have an internal battle of thoughts.
*8 AM, MARKUS’s OFFICE, STARDUST*
Victor walked inside the office before settling down on a desk meant for a secretary. Both Jason and Rose had asked him to handle work at the office which he was trying to do right now.
He had already made a lot of heads turn while he was entering the office, making him a gossip within a short time.
But ‘Stardust’ being a professional company, the news died down quite early,thankfully not creating any troubles for Victor.
“Kizy, I had-” suddenly the door opened and the person entering stopped in tracks, shocked to see Victor instead of Kizy.