While you keep this eye contact with him, say something… any thing, crazy or not crazy. It doesn’t matter how serious or important it could be, as far as he’s listening, it is automatically becomes important to him. Slowly and gradually you’re getting to him.
Try not to let him know what you are up to, let him keep believing you really want to talk to him. And then, now you’re inches close to him, this is the time you have to be practical. You have to kiss him.”
I gasped softly. Kiss him?
” What if he…. What if he pushes me away and then walks me out of his room? You know, he’s getting married… I don’t want it to look like I’m being so jealous or something. ”
” You are actually jealous and that is why you are going to stop this marriage from holding. I’m telling you if this plan doesn’t work, you are free to detain me from being your maid.”
” That isn’t the problem. The problem is I have never kissed before and I can’t even kiss. I mean, how am I supposed to make the move when I can’t even do a thing. Do I have to drop my lips on his and then, that’s it?”
Holland slapped her forehead. ” Oh Jesus Christ. Well, that doesn’t mean the game is over. When he feels your lips on his, there will be a pause of surprise and when he sees you haven’t let go yet, he’s gonna make the next move.
But first, you have to kiss his lower lips. No, not just kiss, I mean lick.”
I rose an eyebrow. ” Are you for real?”
” You said you don’t know how to kiss, well, I am actually teaching you how to do that.”
” Have you kissed before? “I asked. Don’t blame me.
” Yes, twice but that isn’t important now. Your’s is.”
“Great.” I rolled my eyes again.
“Lick his lips slowly, and again and again.”
” I need to calm down before I do anything.”
” No, cos you’re gonna do that now. So clean up your tears young lady, and try to act normal. Though, it’s likely he might know you’re up to something but that shouldn’t stop you. ”
” How is he gonna know about this? You think he’s eves dropping on us or something?” I stood up to check the door.
” No. ” She was laughing.
“What? He might be at the door who knows?”
“I’m talking about the part of him being a wolf. Werewolves are sensitive and can read thoughts even before we find out. But don’t let it stop you, you have to do this. “She encouraged her. ” Not for anyone but for yourself. ”
I went into the bathroom to wash the tear stains off, appearing on a normal face. Though, you can still tell that I’ve been crying.
But that doesn’t matter does it, especially when you’ve got some make ups to do the works?
Holland helped me with the little make up, and a slight lip gloss. I was sure the redness of my eyes were back to white before I left to his room.
It’s time to be practical, Dora. Be practical. I said those to console myself.
I offered a knock on the door, he didn’t hesitate to ask. “Who is that?” He asked.
“It is I, Theodora.” I answered, my legs were actually shivering.
I could hear the approaching footsteps as it got closer to the door, then the sound of keys as he unlocked the door.
Honestly, I’d say, I felt like being this practical right now and I don’t mind if some one might end up seeing us in the act.
“Theodora?” He called surprised. “I… I never expected you to come.”
“I didn’t expect to be here either. I have some thing to tell you that’s why I am here.” I said, making sure I was doing what Holland had said.
” Okay, come in.” He shifted for me to enter.
For the very first time, I was walking into his room. It felt so real than watching from the door. I was lost at the sight of his well furnished room that I almost thought I was in heaven.
“You said you wanna tell me some thing? I’m listening.” Oh, thanks for bringing me back to reality.
I turned to him, do I really wanna say something?
“Uhm, yes.” I exhaled heavily. “I uhmm… I don’t know how to put it words but… I thought I should let you know about it.” I said, making my steps closer to him. ” I know you might think I am crazy but… I know what I’m talking about.”
He just stood there, looking at me attentively even when I knew deep inside of me that I wasn’t making any sense in what I was saying.
He was actually listening to me.
Now I was standing right before him. I just wish he can read my thoughts and know how much it hurts to watch him being taken by another woman.
I just want him to understand how much I love him, how much I’ve hoped for his rise. How much I’ve dreamt and prayed for him despite after what happened between us.
My eyes were already leaking from the tears which clouded it. “I… I don’t… I…” I couldn’t find the words to say so I ended up being practical.
At first, it was a pause, then a kiss on his lower lip. I pulled back, staring into his eyes, those eyes which held hope and salvation.
Like those warm hugs you get from your mother after so many years of staying away from her, those were the kind I felt in his eyes.
And all those fears were replaced with love. I just want him to understand how much I feel for him.
I know he did want to say something, but I won’t blame him for being so surprised and confused.
“You remember me, don’t you?” He asked with hesitation.
I nodded my head. “I do remember you. I remember everything. Your voice, the dreams and visions, back then at the cave. I remember our quarrel that night, how you thr_@tened to ki|| me along with your brother. I remember it all.”
” I… I didn’t mean to hurt you. I was angry and… I wasn’t thinking and… it’s my fault you made that decision. I don’t blame you for wh@ťěver action you took. But I was scared you’d accept the fate to die with him.”
” I never wanted to, I was only scared of dying without getting the chance to look at your face. I was scared a moment like this would never come and… and I was scared I would lose you to someone else.”
He touched my cheek, caressing it with his thumb. I know I shouldn’t have blurted my feelings to him but… I just couldn’t hold it anymore.
Dying in silence wasn’t the best option either because it is I who will regret it later. I don’t wanna regret anything… especially not my feelings.
“You remember earlier when I asked you if you wanted to remember the most important part you were forgetting? ” I nod my head. ” I did wanted to make you remember because I knew I was that important part.
You just don’t know how it hurts me to watch you okay but I was someone strange to you. Though, I did kinda loved the other you but… I desperately wanted you to remember me. ”
I was mentally thanking the heavens for Holland, and for making a day like this to come.
I was hungry for his kiss. I wanted to feel those lips on mine, his hands around my waist, his breath on my face.
I wanted all my thoughts to be of him and no one else, not even about myself. I just wanted him alone.
As if he read my mind, slowly his face was close to mine and all I could look at was his pink lips.
I felt it, soft and gentle… my eyes shut close. My hand held his neck, I didn’t want him to let go. I wanted us like this, just like this.
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To Be Continued…