MY BESTIE & I.
05.
©️ Sha Ron ✔️
?? My heartbreak??
It’s been three months I left home heartbroken, I kept myself busy and I avoided anything about him.
I packed up all the clothes and things he bought for me and hid them in my safe, I snubbed him online and ignored his calls.
I did all that but my mind won’t go a mile without thinking of him, I skipped his posts too because he post’s nothing but his girlfriend.
He’s really inlove, I pray that babe doesn’t break his heart sha, he’s a very good guy and I could see he is serious with her because he doesn’t seem to mind the fact that I ignored him.
I avoided every thing I used to do with him before, playing balls, going to gyms, jogging, playing tennis, going to dinner and even reading romantic stories.
I started a new work at a cyber cafe and kept a busy schedule just to get over him, but deep down inside, I can’t help but feel lost and miss him even more.
It seems that each and every day marks a new beginning of loving him from the start, missing him and fantasizing about us together in the future.
? A future that might never happen.
Combining work with schooling isn’t easy at all, but what can I do? I have to less my pain for I am afraid to face the truth.
I cry to sleep almost every night so much that I looked for another work, I found one at an attachment company were I work all night.
With all that work to do, I still can’t believe that I see him in everything I do. When I’m eating, I see him next to me teasing me about my cooking.
When am washing, I see him before me rinsing my clothes telling me that all my clothes needs to be rewashed because I didn’t wash them well.
Gosh! How will I handle this? I wasn’t planning on falling inlove with him! How did this happen? What’s this craziness about?
Sometimes I blame myself for being a fool, he sees me as a sister and I look at him with so much love and affection, how will he see that?
And other times, I blame him for having the guts to break down my walls which I have built high for so many years.
Other times, I blame fate for making me know him and feeling this way. Bringing us together and giving us different mindsets.
One certain Saturday evening, I was sweeping the Cyber cafe when I saw him coming towards me, I was surprised because I didn’t expect him to come visit me again.
“Surprise!” He commented when I moped at him.
“What…what are you doing here?” I asked as I kept sweeping, I made sure I poured sand on him as I swept but he didn’t complain or leave the spot he stood.
“I can’t visit you anymore? I think I don’t know you again, Yvonne! You have changed” he said sadly.
“Human is constant to change, you haven’t answered my question!” I threw the bathroom away and met his gaze.
“I came to see how you are doing, you don’t answer my calls, you ignore my chats and when I couldn’t stand it anymore, I decided to see if you are alright”
He came towards me but I moved backwards to avoid him touching me, I might loose my mind if he does.
“Who told you am here?” I asked a very stupid question, he has been here before and if he asks my house mates about my whereabouts, they won’t waste time to tell him because he’s a handsome bobo na.
“Well, it’s good to see that you are okay. I will be going back then” he said shrugging.
“Goodbye!” I said and my heart broke as if I wasn’t gonna see him again. It’s not like he’s gonna die or something, gosh! Yvonne who are you?
“Hope you will come to my grandma’s birthday party, she’s expecting you and she told me to come and invite you” he announced tapping his feet on the ground.
“Maybe” I managed and went inside my office.
Huh! He should just tell me that it was his grandma’s birthday that brought him here, not because he cares!
He stood there and watched me for a while before he finally came inside, he pecked me and went away.
I laid my head on my desk and released flood of tears that have been waiting to drop all the while we talked…