❣️IT WASN’T LUST❣️
🌹EPISODE 25🌹
JOSY’S POV
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I don’t understand what I’m doing but I’m just following my heart, my mind and my instincts were all in total control of my head but I just can’t help but concur to it.
Ben was like, Wow! Are you been serious babe?
I smiled and assured him that I’m gonna sleep over, he was so glad, he immediately asked the maid to prepare his mums room for me.
At first I thought it was okay to sleep in his mums room but on a second thought I felt that it will be a mark of disrespect to sleep in her room without her consent then I thought it best to sleep in the guest room or sitting room
I told Ben about my decision but he objected me sleeping in the guest room because he considers me not as a guest and for the sitting room it is a total disagreement that I should sleep there. Rather he decided to give up his room for me and sleep in his mums room or the sitting room.
The downpour of the rain continued even more heavily that every where was so cold, chilling and melting
I had to bath hot water because I was almost freezing out after which Ben gave me his shirt and trouser to put on…. Though it was a bit bulgy but I looked great in it and besides it’s a source of shield for me in the freezing cold weather.
We had dinner of rice and egg stew with chicken. Honestly it was such a delicious meal
I was a bit scared but very alert and conscious of everything, The memory of my r@pe kept replaying in my mind and that of Davids consistency in trying to mølest me which made me runaway from their house and develop deep håtred for men.
These made me get scarier of Ben at every tic of the clock and this is my very first time of spending a night outside and which happens to be in a man’s house.
At a time Ben observed my uneasiness and told me to relax that he is not going to hurt me or do anything stupid to me.Those words calmed me a bit and i began to relax
It was 9pm and sleep has left my eyes like a fish inside the water, i remembered that I have not told UC about my whereabouts and I know that she must be really worried sick about me. I hurriedly picked my phone and dialed her number, thank God it went through. She picked up and started giggling mischievously.
What’s wrong with you UC, whatsup with you I asked trying to figure out what could be amusing her.
Nothing darling, I know you’re over there, I’m not bothered about you big girl just make it so memorable but don’t loose your guide yet. She giggled again and told me that Emma is at our house and definitely gonna sleep over because of the heavy rain.
How comes, I thought he traveled? I caught her in
Yah remember he was supposed to come back tomorrow but he finished what he went for earlier today and decided to come back, immediately he got here the rain started, so…
So….i caught in again…. He won’t be comfortable sleeping in our house I said instead of saying the actual thing that’s on my mind because Ben has come back to the sitting room
He will be fine, his sending his regards… UC told me and I also heard Emma greeting from the background.
I greeted them too and ended the call
Emma called to tell me that he is at your house,That the rain was a barrier to his leaving
Before he could finish I cuts in..
Yah the rain is just a barrier even to me.
Ben burst out laughing
What’s funny I asked him
Nothing, just the way you said the rain was a barrier as if it knows that you’re coming here today
Who knows, maybe you planned it with it of course.
That made him to even laugh the more…. I can’t help but join in the laugh
After laughing he said. So you meant I collected the rains phone number to call her and tell her to rain cat*dog….. That’s fine I just wish it will always happens so, He started laughing again.
I just watched Ben laughed like a kid, he was so handsome and charming, very free like a bird that something in me get so attracted and connected to him. He was sitting on the floor and I was sitting on the double chair besides him… He has laughed to the extent that tears has formed in his eyes.
I haven’t seen a man so happy before and to crown it all, I happens to be the one to bring laughter to his whole being. wow!
Unknowing to me the attraction has made me sit on the floor too.
He raised his hands to wipe the tears and I draw closer to him, my heart was beating faster, it was racing like a car that failed break, he happens to know nothing about what I’m trying to do because he was carried away in his excitement and that excitement of his contaminates me, My heart, head and soul is loosing control
In a swift, I pressed my mouth against his, my eyes closed I don’t even know what I’m doing
He didn’t respond at first, Maybe because he was surprised and never expected it, What I’m I doing, I’m insane and can’t even control my self or the surge that is trying to overpower me.
I have to stop this and withdraw, Where is my self respect and dignity? Gush! I’m so loose he did not even respond to my kiss, I just let myself down.
I opened my eyes my mouth still in his without his reciprocal, My eyes met his questioning eyes with so much love filled in it.
Then I quickly withdraw, I was so ashamed of my self that I quickly stood up, I wanted to leave…. But a hand pulled me back
A hush, romantic voice speaks inaudibly Please don’t go, I’m just making sure that is okay by you
He nailed it all, he nailed me to the ground, I thought he never wanted me but his respect for me kept him from rushing me in. His such an honourable guy.
I opened my mouth to say something but my voice betrayed me from saying a thing. My mouth was just opened until I felt another soft lips placed in mine which actually shut it for me
It was a very tender passionate and romantic kiss, is my first time though and I know I’m a novice in this game but his mouth was just too perfect to guide me through it all. I lost my sanity with my eyes closed, I don’t even know when I was swept off my feet.
The next thing I knew was that, I was in the bed in Ben’s room, Still very lost but I was brought back by his voice when he asked me
With a shaken voice and uncertainty in his voice, with a trembling hands which he placed on me, He asked, Should I go on?
I opened my eyes and looked deep into his, He can’t withstand my gaze which made him drop his head and removed his hands immediately.
I stood up and held his hands. With all the will in me…… I said NO Benny….. Is not the right time yet
He nodded and stood to leave, he pecked my for head and made to leave, My mouth opened with out permission from me, I called him. Ben, is okay, the bed is big enough it will accommodate us both
Are you sure? He managed to ask
I smiled and nodded, Then he came back and lay down. Then asked me
Can I cuddle you please?
I smiled and nodded in affirmation. He smiled and thanked me, kissing my forehead again. He wished me good night and cuddled me like a baby.
I felt him around me and felt very warmth. His heart was beating loud I can clearly hear that. I know he didn’t sleep until 30 minutes when I started hearing a very low soft snoring from him and I know he must be fast asleep
I felt so safe and protected in his arms, I whispered I love you to him, knowing that he might not hear it.
I reflected on how everything happened and I felt at peace with my self for making the right decisions. Then I finally doze off.
TBC