Chapter thirty-eight
UNEDITED
KIARA POV
Three days passed but I couldn’t still find Jarden, I wanted to see him and ask him why he played with my feelings, was I just a fling to him? All the I love you $h|t was just a joke to him.
I told Jerry about not finding Jarden, he was surprised to hear Jarden had been missing for three days without any trace. I wanted to report to the police about it but Jerry talked me out of it. He told me Jarden was not the type to get missing and that he was okay wherever he was.
I missed him so much, I didn’t want to h@ťě him for leaving, for leaving me. But why did he leave? Why did he leave me?
” Everything is gonna be okay huh,” Sharon said patting my back. I had been depressed for the past three days now. I felt so dead inside of me. Why didn’t he just break up with me at least I will still get to see him right?
” I missed him, Sharon, it hurts, my heart hurts” I cried into her shoulders.
” I swear when I see him I will cut off his balls” Sharon thr_@tened.
” You’re looking so sick girl, you look pale as f-__-k” she exclaimed as she touched my cheeks and then my hair.
” How long have you been vomiting?” She asked. It all started yesterday, I was crying my gut out, Jarden disappearance has damaged my health. I find myself vomiting most of the time and losing my appetite for wh@ťěver I eat.
” Yesterday” I said slowly leaving the warmth of her embrace.
” I know heartbreak hurts but you have to think about your health sometimes, I don’t want anything to happen to you Kiara” she whispered slowly. She held my face looking straight into my dead brown eyes.
” You know I love you right” she mutters slowly pecking my dried lips.
” Now get dressed let’s go get ice cream and stop thinking about that @$$h0le”. I forced a smile before walking into the closet.
We walked on the dark empty street, we could only see a few people. The cold breeze brought shivers to my skin giving me goosebumps.
” Wow the ice cream here is nice” Sharon said as she licked her ice cream. I smiled licking my ice cream too. Sharon sighs from turning to face me.
” God Kiara, what the f-__-k is wrong with you? Why are you acting like this? This was exactly how you acted when your dad died. Is he even worth the sadness?” She frowned. If only she knew what Jarden told me, Gosh I fell for him so deeply like a fool. He was like my Oxygen. Wait if there was no oxygen how was I supposed to breathe?
” I loved him Sharon” I sobbed. Sharon’s face softened and she hugged me.
” I miss his kisses, his hugs, I miss everything about him, gosh it’s so hard for me to forget about him, it hurts so much ” I cried out.
” This sure is your first heartbreak” Sharon said kissing my hair softly.
We continued walking holding on to each other hands. Sharon was a good friend, the best friend that I have always wished for. She listens to any of my shits and now I feel like I was talking about my problem too much like she had never gotten to tell me about her own for the past three days now.
” How are you and Harald” I asked trying to sweep my issues away. She looked shocked by my words. She laughed nervously.
” No no you don’t have to do this Kiara, we are talking about you okay” she tried to shove it off.
” No let’s talk about something other than Jarden” My heart winced in pain by the mention of Jarden’s name.
” Ohh okay” she smiled shining her teeth widely. I am so happy that she was happy. For the first time in three days, a genuine smile crept into my face.
” He has been really sweet though, we talked about a lot of things, he even told me how his ex-girlfriend left him for his brother” she laughed. I couldn’t help but chuckle softly, I remember when Greg told me this story when I came here.
” He stopped dating girls because of that incident So.. he preferred messing around and making fun of people instead”.
” He said he had never seen someone like me before and he wanted us to be together”.
” Seriously?” I asked excitedly.
” Yes,” she smiled widely.
” Did you say yes?” I asked and she smiled again.
” Why wouldn’t I” she mutters licking from her almost melted ice cream.
” So what are you going to do about school $h|t?” I asked and she smiled again.
” I plan to transfer”. Woah that is a huge step in a relationship.
” Since you are here it is even better, I get to see my best friend and boyfriend every day” She was genuinely happy. I have never seen her being so happy about a guy before. All her relationships I have been flings and all that nothing really serious that she was committed to.
” I am happy for you,” I asked. She raised her eyebrows before sighing.
” Very happy” she said and I hugged her.
We licked out ice cream, laughed and talked about lots of things, I tried my best to forget about Jarden but that is the hardest thing for me right now, even harder than maths.
My stomach suddenly started feeling funny, I had this urge to puke.
” I think I am about to puk…..” I didn’t complete my words when I instantly ran to a hidden place and vomited everything I had eaten that Evening.
I felt Sharon’s hand on my hair, she held my hair up while I vomited everything in my stomach. I have never vomited so much in my life before.
” This is getting out of hand Kiara” she mutters by the time I am done puking my soul out.
I threw the ice cream that I suddenly started getting irritated by.
” I am okay” I finally said as I continued walking leaving Sharon behind.
” Kiara” Sharon called running after me.
” I think you need to do something really important” she said and I turned to look at her. What does she mean?
” Do what?” I asked already frustrated by the evening.
” Bro you’ve been vomiting nonstop, having mood swings like now, crying too much bro I get your man left you but this can’t be caused by that alone” she explained.
” So what are you implying here?” I asked almost getting annoyed.
” Hmm, I think you should take a pregnancy test just maybe buy a kit to be sure”. No, that made me lose my mind. Buy a pregnant kit for what? f-__-k hell no I am not pregnant. I took pills every time and I made sure I never missed them.
” You must be joking” I laughed sarcastically. Sharon sigh.
” You just need to be sure, I pray you are not pregnant though but you have to be sure, what if you’re pregnant? Will you be hurting your child by crying and starving yourself?” She asked now looking serious.
Me? Pregnant with Jarden’s baby? No no, it can’t happen now, not now pls Lord have mercy.
We went to a pharmacist and then bought a pregnancy test. I silently prayed to God that this thing should be negative. I am not ready to be a mother yet and the worst part of it is a single mother.
I couldn’t wait to get home instead I went to the pharmacist toilet.
The test said we should put urine in a white part. Ohhh that’s cringe but.
I looked at Sharon who gave me a nod to go ahead.
” Wait for 2 minutes” I read out when I have finally put my urine on the white part of it. Sharon put on a timer.
” Everything is gonna be okay” Sharon said and I nodded. God please, please. I promise to never have segz again. I silently prayed.
The sound of the timer ringing made my heart skip. Oh, God.
I looked at the pregnancy kit and my heart skipped. Sharon looked at me trying to find answers in my eyes.
I quickly jumped in celebration, it was just one line. Yayyyyyyyy.
Nothing made me happier than this. Sharon breathed out in relief before hugging me.
” At least you’re not pregnant”.
TBC