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?My Special Day?
Episode:25
AHANA’S POV
” Ahana…. Till what time are you planning to stare?”
” Huh!! What… Everyone left. You didn’t even ask me.”
I heard calling him me. I was very much lost in my own deep thoughts.
We fought again and he left once again. Saying that he ll get back to me. But why doesn’t he understand I can’t tell him about it.
It’s Jaai’s personal thing and why does people like to interfere with other’s lives.
I know we lack Trust in our relationship but if and only if……
I went to my cabin with a heavy head. All the events were playing in my mind.
Ram Uncle’s words still echoed. He was right in his place.
I can’t question him.
I just hope Ansh didn’t hear anything from are conversation.
” Mam….”
” Hmm… Jen.”
” I have scheduled the meeting with the finance authorities this evening.”
” Oh! Jen.
Can you please postpone it. I am not feeling well today. I have a bad headache.”
” Hmm.. Okay. I ll speak to them. Do you want a coffee? ”
” That would be a blessing. Thank you . ”
I sat in my chair with my head rested on the table.
” Uncle, actually I wanted Zara’s cell number. I can’t get to her through her old one. She changed it, right? ”
” Of course she did. I knew you wouldn’t call me if you didn’t have some work related to Zara. I know he asked you.”
” No…. Please don’t get me wrong. He didn’t ask me to do this. But it’s high time we realise the need of it. I know both are suffering equally. Zara has cut all her contacts with us. Only you can help now. ”
” Ahana…. Do you know how much we miss her? Are aware how much Gita misses her? ”
” What?? She isn’t with you. ”
” Ha!! You don’t know how much I h@ťě that Jaai. Because of him we lost our only child. I h@ťě him more than I love my daughter. ”
God!!! This was maddening. Where was Zara? Why?? Did she do all this? Is falling in love so painful? It’s good that I haven’t fallen for someone so bad.
Uncle?? Are you serious? Where is she? ”
” It’s been 3 years, we haven’t seen her. She only texts her saying that she is doing well. That too from untraceable numbers. Even I can’t find her through my contacts.”
” Oh! Man… I thought I could get her number from you. You aren’t aware how miserable Jaai is. He is broken apart. He is searching her like a mad person.
But yesterday he lost her last lead too and now he is shattered. ”
” Good for him after what he did to my Zara. ”
” Please Uncle, you are aware that Zara too must be equally miserable.
It’s just that she is trying to move on but I am sure, she is hiding herself away. You have to help me out. ”
” Ahana… I ain’t joking. I don’t know where is she. You know how stubborn she is. Please inform me if you find her. ”
Uncle’s voice sounded genuine. He won’t lie to such an extent. Maybe he isn’t aware too.
” Ok.. Thanks for everything. Please give my love to aunt Gita. ”
” Mam… Your coffee.” Jen’s voice brought me back from the conversation.
” Thanks Jen… Can you ask Ansh to cover up for me in today’s team booster meeting? I am thinking of going home.”
” But, sir left 15 minutes ago. ”
I was surprised. Where did he go?
” Where? ”
” He didn’t say anything. But there weren’t any meetings scheduled in his calendar. What to do now? Should I call him or postpone the meet. ”
” No… Please give me an aspirin. I ll attend it. ”
After a hectic discussion in the boosters meet, I was exhausted. I wonder where did he go.
I called home but Sara said he didn’t come there either. I had already cancelled the meeting with the finance authority so I decided to rest.
At around 9 I reached home. Ansh still wasn’t there. After changing and having a light supper I called Ansh. He was aware that no one was at
home and still he left me all alone in this gigantic house. Abandoned again…..
Is it his habit or It’s my mistake that I haven’t still got used to it.
When I called him he wasn’t in a reachable area. I thought of calling Mir but then I rejected that idea. Why to trouble him unnecessarily.
It’s 12:30 and Ansh hasn’t returned yet. I am getting a bit more worried now.
I was so tired that my eyes were shutting down on its own. I was in the living waiting for Ansh. I laid down on the sofa.
I didn’t know when I fell asleep.
***
” Mam….. Do you need something?”
I heard someone calling me. I woke up with a start.
” Ansh…. Ansh…..”
” Huh!!! Mam… Sir, isn’t home.”
I woke up now. I realised I slept on the sofa last night.
Sara was standing close to me. She gave me a glass of water. I mouthed her a thank you.
” Ansh, isn’t home yet?”
” No…. I think he left early. ”
” He didn’t come home last night Sara. That’s why I slept here waiting for him.
Sara.. Tell me from how much long are you working here? Was Ansh always like this?”
” I have been working here since I was a teenager. My mom worked here but she had cancer and couldn’t fight it. ” I could see faint tears in her eyes.
” Oh!! I am sorry. ” I said.
Sara must be 5 – 6 years older than me.
But I still call her by her name. I told her to call me by my name by she insist to address me mam.
” It’s okay… Raichand’s paid all the hospital expenses but she couldn’t survive. Since then I work here. My husband works in a company.
He says that I shouldn’t work anymore here since he is doing well for us but this is like a family to me.”
” Oh!! You are married? I didn’t know that. ”
” It’s been 2 years now. Ansh sir, was always an introvert. He never speaks much.
But he is very responsible. He always remembers all grandad’s appointments and ensures that he is back at home before everyone sleeps. ”
” Then.. Why is he doing all this now? ”
” I don’t know. Maybe he is upset about something. ”
Sara was correct. Ansh was upset about something and that relates to
me. I have to tell him about it before the things get worse.
” Hmmm… Can you prepare me a coffee?” She nodded and resumed her work.
I brushed and had a warm water bath. It made me feel good and fresh. I called Jen and informed her that I won’t be going to the office. I needed some rest.
She said that even Ansh didn’t come to the office and texted her the same.
I was wondering if he didn’t go to the office then where did he go?
He should be home by now.
So, finally crushing my self respect I called him. After two rings he disconnected it.
What….. Why did he disconnect my call? He could have picked it up and answered me. Oh! Man… This guy is driving me crazy.
But… What if something wrong is happening with him? Oh! Ahana.. You must not think all these.
I called him again and he disconnected it.
It’s 10 pm and still I have no word from Ansh. I am really getting worried now. The entire day was wasted in strolling back and forth waiting for him.
I couldn’t even concentrate on my work. I had to work out things for Jaai but because of Ansh I was restless for the entire day. I didn’t know that while waiting for someone we can get emotionally stressed out too.
” Mam…..”
” Yes… Sara?”
” Should I wait with you?”
” No.. You must go. You too have a family.”
” It’s… Fine…. I can wait.”
” No… You mustn’t. I insist.”
Sara too left. So I was all alone in the big house. I was pretty sure Ansh wasn’t with Mir.
If he was then he would surely have texted me. I didn’t have my dinner and tried watching the TV.
After admiring the beauty of my house and walking around in the garden I was fed up of waiting. I went in the living room and my patience was giving up.
” Mir….. Is Ansh with you?” I finally called Mir to atleast enquire once for my satisfaction.
” No…. He….”
” Oh!! So someone is missing her husband….”
It was Ansh’s voice. Husky and a bit trembling. I am sure he must be is drunk. I turned around. I still had my cell clutched to my ear.
I saw Ansh standing with a bottle in his hand, of what I don’t know.
His tie was loose and his hair was messy. His shirt was also tucked out. But still why did he look so charming to me. He changed his clothes I suppose.
Ahana…. Are you there? What happened?”
“Mir… Nothing. Ansh is home. Sorry to disturb you. Bye.”
Saying so I hunged up.
” Ansh… What the hell are you doing? Look at you. Why weren’t you picking my call?” I said nearing towards him and taking the bottle away. Luckily he didn’t resist.
” How does that matter to you anyways. You don’t care right? Wh@ťěver I do, you don’t give a d@mn about it…. ” He said almost shouting now.
” Ansh… What has happened to you? Why are you behaving like a child? Are you upset that I didn’t tell you things in the previous morning?”
” Wow…. I am behaving like a child. You are hiding things. That friend of yours has so much security around him that I couldn’t even find a word. ”
” What…. Are you spying him too? Ansh… Why?? ”
” No… I was just getting information. If my wife doesn’t tell me I have other ways. And anyways you have always rejected me. Be it while kissing or telling me things. I know you can’t confide in me. I can’t even be your friend. ”
Oh! He still remembers. Even I do remember it. It was special for me no matter wh@ťěver he thinks.
I went a bit close to him. I could see some faint tears in his eyes. Was he really crying? I think there is something else which makes him so sad.
I cleaned his tears and pulled him into the house closing the door.
In turn he pulled me more close to him closing the remaining gap between us.
” Why…. Ahana…. Why do you do all this? Why are you so good and pure? Why am I so bad?”
He said hugging me tightly. I don’t know what prompted me that I hugged him back. He needed it right.
” Ansh… What are saying? You are not in your senses.”
” I am in my senses. I know what I speaking. Why did you send Mir with food for me? When I abandoned you again. Why do you care when all you could do is to reject me?
Then why do you show so much care for me when you know that I don’t deserve it. No matter what I will hurt you again.”
” What… I didn’t send Mir.” I said averting his glaze.
” Ahana… Don’t lie. I know everything. Also, You always stay awake till early mornings for your good for nothing husband.
Don’t you think I am stupid to understand it. To ensure that I home safe and sound.
Why?? I always make you sad and still you don’t complain. I am so rude with you and you still manage to handle me. Why? After what I did to you. ”
He was still holding me in his arms. I stayed still. How did he know I send Mir to him. I could smell his original strong cologne with a mix of alcohol.
” Ansh….. ”
” Ahana… I am not done yet. You stayed hungry to ensure that I ate well. Didn’t you? Even today I know your stomach is as empty as my heart. ”
Why was he saying all this suddenly. I am sure he ll return to his original side in the morning.
” I had your pasta that day. I loved it. ” I said spontaneously, trying to make up for him. But I really liked it.
” Huh!! You don’t like Italian. You can’t even lie properly.”
This man is really making me crazy now. How does he know I don’t eat Italian.
There were so many questions in my mind. How can he know everything.
” I swear I loved it. I am telling the truth.”
” Good… At least you liked something that I did for you.”
I tried to pull myself back.
” Stay… Please… ”
” I know you h@ťě me.”
He said in my ears and I felt a weird pain in my heart. I don’t h@ťě him. I can’t h@ťě him.
I looked at him and our eyes met. His eyes were all red with just two brown orbs trying to convey something.
I could see the sadness and the emptiness right through him.
I don’t know what prompted me, I stepped on my toes and kissed him. He was a bit tall for me.
He was surprised and didn’t respond. I retreated and he looked in my eyes and all I could do was to nod.
I saw his eyes shine and he moved forward and kissed me gently. I too gave in and responded with equal fervour. It was gentle yet demanding. Trying to show possession over each other.
I bite his upper lip and a Mõ@ɲ escaped from his bottom of the throat. I chuckled. I wasn’t at all experienced. This was for the first time for me.
He smiled weakly and captured my lips again.
It was the first time I kissed someone. Meaning that I initiated it. And I was glad that the person was Ansh, my husband.
I don’t know what kind of relationship we are in now but I figured out that it was something different. He made me feel special, although he realised it or not.
I don’t even know how he feels now neither do I know my feelings but I have learned to live the moment.
I didn’t realise when he carried me to our room.
My eyes were closed and we were engrossed in each other’s embrace. I had my arms around his neck and he pushed the door close with his back.
He placed me on the bed and looked straight in my eyes.
I pulled him near and kissed him again. Depicting what I wanted.
” Ahana…. Trust me I won’t hurt you.”
Is all that he said and the night seemed never ending as we consummated our marriage.
I don’t know on what bonds we claimed each other but it wasn’t only lust. It was something more than that. Something more passionate and irresistible.
It wasn’t just a fatal attraction. It’s something else…. That we couldn’t resist.
***
Bright sun light coming from the corner of our rooms curtain woke me up. I looked at the clock and it was still 8.
I felt a strong hand around my stomach. It was Ansh’s. He was sleeping.
I smiled looking at him. His eye lashes were looking beautiful in the morning light. I moved forward and placed a gentle kiss on his cheeks.
He moved and I quickly closed my eyes, turning around.
I didn’t want him to know that I am awake already. I just don’t want this moment to end. I don’t know why but I want it to last long.
I felt him moving beside me. I closed my eyes tighter. He came near me and pulled the bed sheet covering us a bit lower.
Then he kissed me on my bare shoulder. I melted on his touch. Hoping that things can get better.
There’s always sunshine after the heavy rains. I didn’t move at all until I felt his slow shallow breadth.
” Ahana…. I am extremely sorry… This shouldn’t have happened…”
TBC